that short & sharp feeling

have been long since i last felt that. the last time i can remember might juz be almost 2 years back when i collected by disappointing Os results. that it hit me real hard i muz say..

this time...nope! not that i fell outta love or what or did anything happened to me that made me felt that way..

its just....

he's a good friend. a friend so simple.. a person everyone wld say simply woo, perfect guy who's close to extinction. when he smiles, u cant help it but smile back. when i saw him so happily in love, all i cld give was blessings and more blessings and of course hope it stays the same for a long long long long longggg time.. everything seems so perfect when he was in love.

today..... he gave me this lost/confused/devastated/broken look.. ive never seen it on him before. NEVER. i guess not any who knws who can ever imagine that. and its indeed the first time i cld feel sadness through someone's eyes. without much words.. i knew something was wrong. very wrong.

he explained further. within the next few sentence, he choked and just walked away tearing.. my tears rolled down unknowingly. it really hurts. to see a good fren, someone close to heart, speak out to u without that trademark smile of his, with tears filling up the brim of his eyes. i guess... no one reading this can ever feel this unless u've been through it before. i thought i was being silly.. but i seriously overwhelmed by how i reacted. even when i face life difficulties or some love complications on my own, it never lead me to any drop of tear...

to this dearest pal of mine.. do remb God has planned the best for you? if it fails, it juz means that the best has yet to come. it will hurt, definitely, without fail. but time will heal all wounds.. love takes time.. =) for all the comes along, do know i'll be here with many others. i know i will still get that smile right from within soon.. yeah?

back to an old yet very true saying.. Whats meant to be, will be...